wow. i dont know what to say. thats like the validation ive been wanting to hear from you forever.
i cant tell you how many people have asked me why i put up with it all. and i think its because i have so many problems helping myself, i feel like i hjave to help other people. and i felt like if i helped you enough it would help me too. at first i was doing it to prove how much i love you, and in a way i still am. because theres always a part of me that loves you. but after a while i just wanted to be the person that would never let you down. im still trying to be there for you, and it will be tough where i am going to be. it is going to be a rough year for both of us. but now our roles are going to change. i need you to be the person i can rely on. youve always supported me in good decisions and bad. i know in my heart you want me to be the best person i can be and your helping me achieve that. as long as you send letters to my mom they will get to me. and i will get them to you. you are my best friend, with all your faults and you have a lot fersure. but you have so many more qualities that make you such a great person. i think its one of the reasons i fell in love with you. no one else has ever known me as well as you do. im still not used to having someone like that, and its scary and i get paranoid. reading that makes me believe youll be there for me till...the end? but i honestly hope to God that there never is an "end".
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