50 People;

1. I loveeee you (:

2. Your my best guy friend (:

3. You let me down.

4. Your my foods buddy
5. SUMMER BUDDY. i love you (:

6. Your a know it all, but I still love you.

7. Your a fake ass bitch.

8. I think I like you?

9. --- To The World!

10. I use to hate you; now I love you.

11. Your moving down the street from me!

12. You use to be my best friend, now I don't trust you.

13. Your my natural Science buddy.

14. Your a hoe bag. But I love you lots.

15. You kinda whine and bitch a lot.

16. Your a fucking baby.

17. Your black.

18. Your black and super white.

19. You gave me your beads! (:

20. Your really crazy, and i loveee you baby!

21. I've known you a long time, and I like you a lot. But :/

22. You cause a lot of your own problems, but I'm glad your getting help now.

23. Your really fucking dumb.

... more to come!

And When You change, I wont be there;

I got my hopes up, but for what?

Just to be let down again.

This is why I don't trust anyone, this is why I don't date anyone.

I hate the feeling that it leaves me, like I'm not going to ever be good enough for anyone ever again. I hate how hard it is to pretend that everything is alright. I'm sick of lying to everyone and myself.

I just hate being let down.

By the People I care about most.

I'm moving on.

Again.

How Time Really Fly's;

"Second by second, minute by minute,

hour by hour, day by day,

week by week, and month by month."

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And now its 6 months later, Wow how time passes by. That's six months of time I haven't spent with her. I know she is in a better place, and I have accepted what happened. I just wish the story didn't end this way. So many things that I wish I could have told her, and So many things I wish I could have shown her. I know she would be proud of me going to church and my grades, I just wish I could hear her approval in my ear. Even though I know exactly what she would say. Not a day that goes by that I don't wish she could still be with us. But I'm glad she's not hurting that way any more I know she loves it better up there. She can have anything she wants. And watch all her babies do what she couldn't. I wish I could go back to the months that she was in the hospital and take her out and make her wish come true. Just for her to go home, in her own house. But I can't. I wasn't there when she took her last breath but I wish I was. It's been hard without her no doubt. But we're a strong family we will keep going strong.

R.I.P Grandma Connie

4-28-09

My Bucket List;

Things I want to do before I die:

Skydiving

Go To Italy

Get married

Have babies

Smoke with Missy and KiKi

Drink with Missy and KiKi

Fall In Love

Stay in Love

Be an astronaut

Hang out with Cody

Go to Amsterdam

Go to Missy's quietest party

Watch Aubrey grow up

Get accepted into LSU

Donate money to Invisible Children

..more to come

KFC Jew;

I saw a Jewish kid working at KFC.

lmao I love you KiKi.

Good times.

Now back to reality, lmao. Me and Hunter are both going on diets b/c hes a fag, and Baylen says I'm too fat. So whatever. We're going all day without eating. B/c this school is making people fat!

And, the red tape over your mouth people; your dumb. If you don't like abortion wouldnt you want to express that you don't like it? Wow.

Oh yeah, for people that we're close to me last year, Remember Pablo? lmao he's not sexy anymore.

Okay, I ran out.

I'll Rant later (:

Intercession!

I had an amazing break, heres the run down:

Wednesday:

-Went to Church with Cami

-Spent the night with her Foster family

Thursday:

-Pumpkin Patch (:

-Dentist

Friday:

-Cami Came over

-Went to See Baylen

-Almost peed our pants!

-Saw Sheridan and Lea

-Shadows Edge

-Babysat Aubrey!

-Made a big ass tent!

-Went to sleep.

Saturday:

-GO BIG RED!

-We lost

Sunday:

-Watched movies in bed.

Thanks to all the people i saw this break.

You made it wonderful!

Terrible;

Yesterday I was driving home, about to take Dan and Hunter home. I was driving on 90th street, when i looked over. Saw Austin's car. I kept driving because I didnt have to pick up my sister. The whole way home I kept thinking about his car coming up by mine so i kept looking, looking for it. While i was driving my mind started to wonder. All the sudden I found myself in the wrong neighborhood, my neighborhood. My mind was so side tracked I forgot that I had Hunter and Dan in the car. I felt so stupid that I let seeing his car make my mind wonder that bad. Something could have happened to us, and it would have been my fault because i wasn't fully paying attention.

Gahh :/

Austin Wetuski feels left out. So This is for him. He's my buddy.

I got this new attitude;

Everyones writing about love; and i have nothing to say about it.

The end (:

Midnight Snacks;

"Shut the fuck up Tammy!"

-Jim

Homecoming.

"Funny faces this time.."

"The Group?"

"Pictures at the dinner table"

These were long over due, and I got bored so I thought i would put them on here.

Bloody Knuckles;

A game where blood is good? And the more you bleed the weaker you are, and the less you bleed the tougher you are? I really don't understand why people who play this, I mean your intentionally hurting yourself, so its basically the same thing as cutting yourself? In a way it sounds true to me. Its so stupid, its not even amusing anymore. I mean your shooting a quarter at your knuckles, what is really the point of this? Its stupid, its dumb, the end.

Some people have really changed since you first met them. I know I have. I grew up.