Question.

Why do we intentionally do something

that we know is going to hurt us?

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Everyone does it, i think it is Human nature. We just have to see if we were right. And when we are, and we get hurt we blame other people, for intentionally hurting yourself. When something crosses our minds, it seems like a brilliant idea, then you do it. And then you think about what you did, and your like that was fucking stupid. "UNDELETE!" But you can't undelete life, you have to make mistakes in order to learn. You have to get over your past and be satisfied with it before you can move on into the future. But until then Your stuck. You have to learn to let go and move on, and leave whatever it is holding you back behind. We do something that we know will hurt us because we want to go back into the past, we want to fix things we did in the past, we want this time to be different. But it cant.

Your Stuck.

Remember This?

!@#$%&

"But I'm stuck in this fucking rut;

Wait another second then pick me up;

And I'm over, getting older..."

-All Time Low

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I'm in a bit of a rut myself, should I call him? Should he know that I think about him 24/7? What will he say? He seemed happy the last time we talked. Would that still be the case? I miss him so much. More than I ever thought I could. He lives so far, but I can't get his face out of my head. I can't focus on anything today, I can't sit still without my mind wondering to his face. I don't think he feels the same anymore. Maybe its just puppy love, but I love seeing his face, hearing his voice, and I can't forget his touch. I found something out, that changed my perspective on him, I thought everything we had in the beginning was a lie. But how do I know I'm right? But how do I know I'm wrong? I thought that nothing could come from this one little thing, but It turned into so much more. I miss him, plain and simple. But I can't fix that. If its meant to be, then it will happen right? Why can't I just force it to happen? Ugh. What should I do?

Babby!

I have a headache.

I hate school.

But I love being greeted coming home from school (:

She's only two, and not even mine.

But I love her lots.

Want a gold star?

Way to start drama!

Again.

Its what your good at.

Talking shit.

Fuck people;

me- "I do have a job"

him- "what corner?"

Fucking rude.

I'm not a whore, nor will I ever be, I don't want a disease.

Dear Hunter;

Your my best guy friend, and I treat you like shit sometimes. I'm sorry I call you fat, your not fat your just a growing boy. I yell at you all the time and I abuse you. I'm sorry. I dont want to lose you as a friend because I do any of this shit. So I'm working on it. I'm sorry hunter.

Adventure!;

"The Tigers looked so sad, and they were hungry!"

"Spider Web, thingy"

"ITS AN ORANGUTAN!"

"She liked me (:"

"This was her baby"

"In the penguin bowl."

Thats a Friday Night;

"I sit on you!"

"Upside down tradition"

"Say cheese..." "Wheres the cheese?"

"Uh?"

"No comment."

"Lets all open our mouths for this one"

"Cami do poses for us"

"Theres food in my mouth you hoe."