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"But I'm stuck in this fucking rut;

Wait another second then pick me up;

And I'm over, getting older..."

-All Time Low

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I'm in a bit of a rut myself, should I call him? Should he know that I think about him 24/7? What will he say? He seemed happy the last time we talked. Would that still be the case? I miss him so much. More than I ever thought I could. He lives so far, but I can't get his face out of my head. I can't focus on anything today, I can't sit still without my mind wondering to his face. I don't think he feels the same anymore. Maybe its just puppy love, but I love seeing his face, hearing his voice, and I can't forget his touch. I found something out, that changed my perspective on him, I thought everything we had in the beginning was a lie. But how do I know I'm right? But how do I know I'm wrong? I thought that nothing could come from this one little thing, but It turned into so much more. I miss him, plain and simple. But I can't fix that. If its meant to be, then it will happen right? Why can't I just force it to happen? Ugh. What should I do?