You frustrate me;

I try to explain to myself all the time that he is a good guy he doesn't mean it. But I'm done with his bullshit Its gotten to a point where i miss sleep and i start slacking and stop focusing. When is he gunna learn? Probably never or when he has a heart attack.

I'm getting really sick of waking up every Thursday feeling exhausted, irritated, pissed off,

and extremely emotional. I want to know I have parent that don't act like children. They go

out and party at least twice a week. And mom said "Its good to have a break in the middle

of the week" Yes but do you honestly have to lie to your children every week about the

time your coming home, or how drunk you really are. See it gets to a point where I don't

even feel safe being at home. Especially when your in my fucking face screaming and

spitting. All because the door was locked.

Dude your 40 years old, don't you think its about time you grew up a little? If not for

you then at least for you children. I'm worried for my future. Is this how I'm going be?

Hell no. I'm not going to let it. And I know that Alcoholism runs on both sides of the family

so I'm really worried. But seriously, back to my point.. Your not just ruining your own life

your ruining the children you have in your house. By coming home extremely drunk and

yelling in their face your teaching them that it is right, and its okay to do that. But its not.

Okay I'm done.